OMGZOMBIES

Starting in October, I've noticed that there has been an increase of Zombie loving people.
I am one of those crazy people.
I honestly have no idea why they are sooo fascinating though, I just enjoy watching them and shooting them. (:
A group of us up at school played a campus wide game of Humans vs. Zombies.
THAT WAS FREAKING EPIC.
Then some of us from that group got together on Sunday nights to watch The Walking Dead.
Also, pretty epic.

But recently, I've been playing Left for Dead 2. And boy was that the best idea and the worst idea I have ever had. I have played soo much of it that when I see random people walking in the streets at night, that my first instinct is to "SHOOT IT". And a couple nights ago, I actually dreamed that I was in the game shooting things...ooyyeee. On the other hand, I have TONS of fun playing the game for countless hours.

So there.
Now the world knows that I am addicted to zombies.
(:

The (un)Clarity of Life.

Some days, life just makes more sense than others.
As if you woke up early in the morning and knew exactly what you were supposed to be doing the rest of the day.
And some other days, you have no idea where life is taking you.

Sometimes I just feel like I do all of this planning to try and organize my crazy life- for nothing. As if all of this work and planning is just another way of me just dreaming while I'm awake. As if I wake up and feel in control of my life, just to realize later that I truly have no control whatsoever.

I hate this feeling.

I'm the type of person that needs to know what I'm doing 5 steps ahead of where I'm at. I usually have these steps all planned out. But it never seems to me that I end up following these steps. Something always happens that makes me have to sit and re-evaluate my life to create another 5 step plan.

I wish I didn't have to do this so often.

Can't I just wake up in the morning and know exactly where life is taking me? It would honestly save me sooo much time, stress, effort, and emotions.

This morning, I woke up to the voice in my head telling me that I needed to get up, something is about to happen today. So here I am. Awake and trying to make something happen.

The truth: There is no such thing as clarity in life.